Hey Y'all!my name's farah and im 16 going on 17.i love shopping!!!xp i also lyk the strawberry ice cream frm hagen daz...i prefer science subjects as compared to huamnities.i love watching tv,esp disney channel!xp my favourite story is the little mermaid(the orginal hans christian anderson one,not the fake disney channel one.) i enjoy surfing the net as well as hanging out wif my frens.xp
I have found, almost everything ever written about love, to be true. Shakespeare said,"journeys end in lovers' meeting." oh, what an extraordinary thought. Personally I have not experienced anything remotely closed to that, but i am more than willing to believe that shakespeare had. I suppose I think of love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its shear power to alter and define our lives. It was shakespeare who also said love is blind. Now that, is something I know to be true.
For some, quite inexplicably, love fades.
For others, love is simply lost.
But then of course, love could easily be found, even if just for the night.
And then there's another kind of love, the cruelest kind, the one that almost kills its victim. It is called unrequited love. Of that, I am an expert.
Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories? Those of us who fall in love alone. We are the victims of the one-sided effect. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded, the handicap without the advantage of a parking space.
Yes! You are looking at one such individual
And I have willingly loved that man for over 3 miserable years. The absolute worst years of my life! The worst christmas eves, the worst birthdays, new years' eve brought in by tears and valium. These years that I've been in love have been the darkest days of my life! All because I've been cursed by being in love with the man who does not and will not love me back! Oh god, just the sight of him, heart pounding, throat thickening, absolutely can't swallow, all the usual symptoms.
i saw dis thing on kaki's old blog....and i can really relate to dis author...well...not as long as 3 yrs...bud u guys get the picture....thought it was quite meaningful and apt...so...here it is!
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Sex Ed?!?!
todae i went to sch....as usual...i kip telling my dad not to let me go to sch cos i dun haf to do anything in sch...bud he kips telling me to go to sch and "mingle" and "bond" wif my frens...LOL!!! haha...
todae before anything even started, i got called out by mrs Lim to meet mrs tham...i got a shock...oh wait. ppl hu arent frm kcpss....mrs lim and mrs tham deal wif discipline cases...so i got a shock cos normally i'm such a gd kid (at dis point most of my classmates and frens wld start coughing.LOL) , so i dun tink i'd haf any discipline probs. den while charmaine and i were going to meet mrs tham, hyun jun was lyk " u were caught rioting outside sch rite?" den to di siao him, i went "shhhh dun tell everyone...." LMAO! so lame rite? haha...
turns out she juz wants feedback on the sch and stuff tmr...o.kay....rite...anyways...todae we had sex ed....so nth much la...den we had SPA practical....omg!!!! my practical sucks la...big time...nvm....God shall help me. =))
I LOVE MY PHYSICS SPA FILE! IT'S THE COOLEST THING ON EARTH....IT HAS MY NAME ON IT!!! LOL....
sorrie...random...den nth much to sae le...so....adios!
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Monday, 22 October 2007
why cant you just understand?
hey ppl...sorrie for the real long haitus...so yeah...let's start wif a gd note. my results are...okay...not super...bud its not too bad either. 5As,2Bs and 1C...LOL...i guess i really haf to thank my heavenly father for the results...so, thanks daddy! =)
anyways...dats pretty much the gd news...now i juz nid to rant. so bear wif me...
i juz dun understand my parents sometyms. i haf frens hus parents r lyk super understanding and my frens can juz open up to dem. for me, i haf to tink lyk twice or thrice before i tell my parents anything. it's lyk everything i do or sae will definately haf some backlash or at least gain some comment frm dem, especially my father. he has to judge everything i do or sae..and i mean i really thank him for all the material things he's provided for me, bud dere's more dan dat. he juz doesnt actually tink bout wad effects his words has on me. or at least i dun tink so anyway. this has resulted in me not even bothering to answer him wen i get scolded. even though i didnt do anything, i cant even b bothered to defend myself anymore.... cant stand it. i juz wish my parents cld actually understand and not judge everything i do. is dat so hard?
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Monday, 15 October 2007
where the hell are all these mozzy bites coming from?
wth...i woke up dis morning to realise dat i haf lyk a ton of fresh mozzy bites...wth...i sleep in an AIR CON room...so...where the hell are all dese mosquitos coming frm...*scratch scratch* itchy itchy itchy...i tink only singapore mosquitos lyk my blood cos the other tym i went for my kota tiggi camp i had lyk super little bites...mayb my blood's too sweet for the kota tiggi mosquitoes to suck...LOL.
my sis is bugging me for the com...when she's supposed to b studying for her final year exams...so irritating...u dun c me bugging her for stuff during my exam...and my sis is lyk 10. so wth...i hate being the oldest...y cldnt i haf been an only child....*sighs and bangs head on desk*
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Sunday, 14 October 2007
A Whatever life
wahhh....sians...super sian! save me....HAHA...okay....random starting...lets review the day shall we...
went to church....super early...well not much earlier dan the other day....bud stil...quite zonked out....LOL. den was on duty todae....not too bad...thank God i didnt screw up....*phew* LOL...yeah...dan we went to watch jie jie vickie write her resume....HAHA...so bo liao rite...nvm...gd luck on writing yr resume! =))
aft service went for lunch...den we went for a wake...den i came home and K.O-ed for a while...=)) sleep is gd! =)) LOL...
den went to my uncle's hse for dinner....den yeah...nth lors...sit dere...watch tv,eat dinner, watch somemore tv...den dunno for wad my father ask me measure my BMI and dunno wad crap fat level...so retarded la...i noe i'm fat happy? OMG lar..dat was lyk so damn retarded...den tell him i dun wanna measure dat dunno wad crap den he kip insisting on measuring...wth. so bo liao la. wu liao...
den aft dat came home and watch night and the museum...nice show.=)) a muz watch. =)) LOL. den lyk nth else lors...so sian rite my day? i so dun haf a life mans...HAHA.
i dun understand smth bout sch...does it really take u guys bout 2 wks to show us our results and to collect report bks? so diao lars...go sch dunno do wad sia...sit down dere and rot....oh wait.dun tell me. some teachers wil wanna start on nxt yr's topics. perfect. juz perfect....so damn sians la...mayb i shld "self declare" hol to end of dis yr. LOL. so retarded la...got dunno wad sexuality education...i tot cover finish liao? no? how many tyms do u wanna drill into our heads dat unprotected sex is bad for us and can result in aids and wadever other diseases...hello? deres lyk a chp on it in the sec2 txb...i tink we wld get the pic by now...
seriously....i'd rather go anywhere and do cip....rather dan sit in sch and study...come on. we juz finished our EOYs....gif us a break....
blahs...i blog another tym...ciao!
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Wednesday, 10 October 2007
hollow feelings are the pits...
todae i went out wif lina to bugis!!! we wanted to take neos...bud den sadly the thing closed down...=((
den we went to find nana's mummy's birthday present! LOL....we went round trying to find the "perfect" gift...HAHA...
den i got 2 shirts and 3 earings!!! yay! i got the flash shirt frm dc comics...shall i get the batman one? LOL...hmmm...den i got the "little ms curious" shirt....yay!!! =))
so all in all...a pretty fruitful day...=)) tmr we're going to bugis...again!!! LOL..manda lim wants to buy a sch bag...HAHA...
den we saw thawfeek and siva and gang at bugis...LOL...at first i tio stunned...cldnt recognised thawfeek at first...den i blink blink...den i realised it was thawfeek....so...." HI THAWFEEK!!!!" LOL....den i saw jie jie joyce and jie jei vickie...=)) HI JIES!!!! =))
okay nth to sae le....now i gotta go transpose my scores....bye!
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song recommendations anyone?
i'm kinda stumped for song choice and i haf no idea wad song to put on my blog....i'm lyk soooo outta the loop...sad case mans....
anyways i gtg get changed to go meet lina aka nana tay...we're going out! finally!!! =)) yay!!! LOL...so random seh....LMAO.
btw...wld some kind soul put me back in the loop and recommend me some songs....LMAO!!
okays....kcpians enjoying dese few days off...haf fun and behave yourselves! LOL....=))
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Tuesday, 9 October 2007
vulgarities...
i have a very sudden urge to go out and start screaming vulgarities....OMG...wads happening to me...mood swings? too stressed frm exams? bad influence....muz b it....hais...i'm mentally exhausted and drained....wad to do?
if i had the choice,i would rip out my heart and fling it to the ends of the earth...at least that wouldnt be as painful as what i'm feeling now....
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When you love someone by Bryan Adams
When You Love Someone by Bryan Adams
When you love someone - you'll do anything you'll do all the crazy things that you can't explain you'll shoot the moon - put out the sun when you love someone
you'll deny the truth - believe a lie there'll be times that you'll believe you can really fly but your lonely nights - have just begun when you love someone
when you love someone - you'll feel it deep inside and nothin else can ever change your mind when you want someone - when you need someone when you need someone...
when you love someone - you'll sacrifice you'd give it everything you got and you won't think twice you'd risk it all - no matter what may come when you love someone
you'll shoot the moon - put out the sun when you love someone
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DVDs wanted....
i seriously nid DVDs....i'm being bored outta my skull...and i dunno how many more tyms i can stand watching HSM 2...OMG!!! i will freak out...anybody haf any DVDs to spare? cos i will seriously pass out if i haf to watch HSM 2 again....LOL...
i feel very hollow all of a sudden...lyk smth's missing...bud i juz dunno wad...or mayb i do....bud i'm hoping it isnt wad i'm tinking it is...does dat make sense to u guys? LOL...
well tmr i'm going out wif lina...yay! gd luck for those ppl taking bio!!! =))
todae i went out wif jing and nata....we had fun in pizza hut didnt we....btw oh my E=MC2! jing's a GEEK!!!! lol...sorrie...dat was so random...if u wanna noe the full story behind dis sentence...ask me, jing or nata....LMAO...
den i saw my jie jie and jie fu....OMG...dey so sweet lars...so damn jealous okays....LOL...
damn random post....i feel kinda disorientated now...all i noe is...i hate feeling used...and i hate being the key to anything...dats all i can sae...feeling tired...super sians now....shall blog mayb later.....ciao.
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how do i love thee? Let me count the ways...
"How do i love thee? let me count the ways..." by Elizabeth Barrett Browning
How do I love thee? Let me count the ways. I love thee to the depth and breadth and height My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight For the ends of Being and ideal Grace. I love thee to the level of everyday's Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light. I love thee freely, as men strive for Right; I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise. I love thee with a passion put to use In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith. I love thee with a love I seemed to lose With my lost saints, --- I love thee with the breath, Smiles, tears, of all my life! --- and, if God choose, I shall but love thee better after death.
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a test i juz took....
hey ppl...its over!!! my EOYs r over!!! *woots woots* alright.....=))
as i was super bored...i decided to do dis test dat i saw in my email inbox...so here u go....
"Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out."
