Hey Y'all!my name's farah and im 16 going on 17.i love shopping!!!xp i also lyk the strawberry ice cream frm hagen daz...i prefer science subjects as compared to huamnities.i love watching tv,esp disney channel!xp my favourite story is the little mermaid(the orginal hans christian anderson one,not the fake disney channel one.) i enjoy surfing the net as well as hanging out wif my frens.xp
hais...i dunno wad to sae mans...wenching saes i shld learn how to let it all out...so here goes...
i knew he lyked someone...den i told myself to leave it...be emotionless.feel nth.not to let anyone through. bud den...looks lyk my plan backfired. to hear it frm someone dat he lyks someone juz...to put it bluntly...hurts lyk crap.i mean i already knew. bud den...how come it stil hurts so badly? wtf...i dunno i really dunno....it juz...f***ing hell hurts la...
i really dunno how to phrase it...mayb only once you've been through dis...den will u truly understand how much it sucks..one thing i cant comprehend bout this is dat....y the hell does it hurt so much? wth....this is not my 1st crush.i dun tink it'll b my last either...bud can someone out dere juz please answer dis....y the bloody f*** does it hurt so much?
cant stand it.i want out.i juz wanna run as far away as possible.leave all this crap behind. truth b told.i dun tink anyone cld actually grasp the concept of y i lyk him so much. hell i dun even noe y.and it juz bloody pisses me off dat i cared so much...
i bet everyone tinks i'm the world's biggest idiot...and i dun blame u guys in the least...cos i tink i'm the biggest idiot of dem all. f*** dis feeling.
lyk todae during pe we played frisbee.and den wen the wind comes, yr frisbee,no matter how well u throw it, goes haywire...dis is y i lyk football better. cos u haf more control over the way u wan the game to go. rather dan let smth external,lyk the wind, control it.similarly. in my life...i hate feeling helpless.lyk i cant control certain things in my life.and i cant stand the feeling of letting smth external control my life...bud sadly...in the case of him and me...it's so freaking out of my control.and dere's nth i can do bout it.no matter wad i do, no matter wad i sae. wont make a difference...cos he already likes someone else.so dere's nth i can do...bud juz to let go and wish him all the best...hopefully the girl he lyks,lyks him back...den dey'd b happy...and deres nth more i can do bud juz to step back and watch.
btw daddy, if you're reading dis...i'm waiting for our family foto before putting up a foto...=))
"If you love something, set it free. it'll come back to you, if it was meant to be." bud...wad happens if you love something so much, bud you cant bear to let it go, no matter how hard you try? wad do you do den?
